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Recently, due to migraines, I was put on a ketogenic diet, with the instruction that I would almost certainly lose weight then I got sent to an ear nose and throat specialist who assured me that whatever was causing them was almost certainly dietary, probably, we're mostly sure and asked me for three months to keep a food diary but being anal when I started to log what I ate I found myself including recipes, and notes and I was encouraged to share it. Now I have a terrible relationship with food, years of bullying over my weight, even as a skinny teen I had big hips = ergo I was fat, and so my weight yoyo-ed even when I ate healthily, stress and other things did me in At university I ate crap that I mostly cooked myself and for the first time my weight levelled off at a healthy 9st 6oz (I'm 5'1, it was heavy but it seemed happy with itself) then I left university and worked a horrible job with little access to real food, so I lived on prepackaged crap and my weight ballooned to 15st that job caused the first of three nervous breakdowns, I have nothing but sympathy for people who work in call centres, it's shitty hours, never settled enough to lock into a pattern, and shitty fast food because you're too tired for anything else, and then you have to talk to people. Crippled with depression and agorophobia my weight just skyrocketed up to what it is at the moment, 19st 4oz. Even though I had no appetite and was eating like a bird. The problem it turned out wasn't how much I was eating but what. and no diet worked, so I did my research, I got my doctor to run tests and went to a nutritionist and we decided that altering my diet to a low GI plan was worth a test, but then there were the migraines so we just notched it up a bit to a ketogenic diet. now for those who don't know what a ketogenic diet is, it's high fat, adequate protein little to no carbs. But here's the thing, I looked at the science of it, at why foods were bad and foods were good and then I tried to cut out coffee. Well I say tried, I'm working on it. So that's why. So I hope you join me, this is the variant form of the notebook I carry around with me to record what I eat, with recipes etc maybe you'll take some of those recipes away and make yourself something yummy too, because seriously when you have the relationship I have with food, good doesn't quite cut it, it has to be great or I won't eat. This isn't a pro-ana site, this is just someone who has to watch her food taking a log